I need CHANGE!

Well, so far today I have "made" someone have a car accident, made another person cry, and managed to piss my boss off. What a morning...And tell me again why I still live in Texas ?? I need to move FAR away and start over....I get that I may "overreact" but crap people, throw me a bone here. A person can only take so much before 9:30am. I guess I am just wired different and certain things that I think are common sense or courtesy, just are not the same for others.

I need a Zen Garden and can't find one for the life of me......I need to change my lifestyle and can't get the motivation. I need to stop getting pimples at age 30. I need a haircut to maintain this awful head of hair. I need to lose weight...I need to learn to eat things that I may not like, and hope I acquire a taste for them, i.e. vegetables and lettuce. I need to learn to be more patient. I need to not be mean and realize people can/do cry over silly things. I need anger management.

I need ALOT of work...but I lack the motivation to start this overhaul. Why? It's alot of work....any ideas on good books to help me start?